If given a chance.. what are the words that you would want to say to someone?
I've been asking myself this question recently.
I’ve been waiting for the chance to tell that someone that I liked her.
I realise i didn't have the courage to utter anything, and she knew nothing.
She told me those guys that phrased to her and claimed that they liked her had been rejected and stop contacting her. I kept it all quiet because i might be next if I voiced out liking her? No one likes the feeling of being rejected right? Nor I want to get drifted further from her. So, I thought continue going on like this might be better.
She knew my daily routine of life. Yes she told me, "You're always the same lei, keep sing and drink sing and drink!" I could only say, "No loh, i go find frens and wait frens finish work ma." She would turn me away by saying "Bye. Go enjoy."
I would wake up the next day with a sweetest "Goodmorning!" or a "Goodnights!" while i sleep. How could I've not treasure all this care and concern? And continue wasting the rest of my time sleeping, slacking, singing and drinking.
As I'm looking back at the past sms to the lastest, I found out that our conversations became lesser. All was normal work stuffs, where's her destination after work etc.. Apart from that, her care and concern was never reduced. However, I felt more.
Sometimes, chatting on phone or texting with her, the love and care that I felt I could only tell myself that it was friendship. She's just treating me as a very good buddy and I dare not think much. As we getting more and more closer (through only phone or MSN), I realised the chance of telling her that i loved her diminished.
If given a chance.. what are the words that you would want to say to her?
I would tell her "I love her."
To her..
Using only my 5 fingers, I could count how many times had we came out. I dared not asked you out because the last time I came out with you was quite screwed as I've got no plans where to go after we went to watch fireworks. I'm someone that has been fighting with boredom daily and thinking of places to go. If I were to meet you out, what plans can I have? I don't want you to be bored. Nor I want you to feel bored when meeting me out. Til now I realise, I'm really dumb. I had never thought back that, if you felt that going out with me is bored, why would you still meet me for the 2nd, the 3rd time?
Til the day you mia for 2 days, I realised how important you were to me. These 2 days were also two of my closeties birthday. I got alot of sms from people digging me to go out early and I've been looking at my phone every minute. Hoping that the contact picture of yours that you took with my phone would appear with your sms. I'm really worry, really afraid that things might happen to you and cursed myself for those negative thoughts later on. I asked ChunLeng to check if you were on MSN but you doesn't.
The next day, he called me. He said you were online and I ask him to talk and asked what had happen to you. And you told him about you and your ex patching up, don't know how to face me etc. I'd already been guessing about it, but the news still got me blank for a moment. So I decided to text you and tell you how I feel, and everything in my heart.
You've asked me to be happier than before and hope that i'll find my happiness. What does that suppose to mean? I finally got my answer. Aren't you my happiness? I already found my happiness. My happiness is, when you got your happiness. I'd be happy when you are. If you are not, then I would try my best to make you smile.
Remember you asked me where do you stand? And i said it was friendship. I said it's friendship because I don't want things to get complicated. It's Love. Simply love that made me think of you 2 hours ago, now, and 2 hours later.
Afterall i'm fine, sorry for those that worry. Now you 2 are back together, all i can do is pray for you happiness! And it would be my happiness too(:
