Wednesday, November 12, 2008
You have known her for a long time. You know all about her, her ex-boyfriends.You are her number one buddy, someone whom she would share everything with you. Her darkest secrets, and all the moments that she cried you would be there for her.Was it purely friendship? That made you woke up in the middle of the night just because she wanted someone to talk to after a tussle with her boyfriend.How ironic, as it took you a long time to realize she’s actually the one you are looking for after all these years.You waited and waited, until she is finally single.But you don't have the courage to tell her, the feeling that was hiding deep inside you. You afraid that when you tell her about your feelings one day, she would tell you she is tired about having another relationship. She thinks you are a nice person, someone who can take care of her. Unfortunately you weren’t someone in the mold of her dream.The long road is almost unbearable. The world never seems to stop turning, time never seems to take notice on someone who’s struggling through life.You might have the feeling not to care for anyone else again, for you knows no matter how much you cared , no one will be there for you, as you head towards the infinite sadness of life…... Towards the path of infinite sadness and mental destruction of life .So i ever tried asking myself, was it purely friendship? I don't know. I didn't even manage myself to meet her out often. I could only express my care and concern via sms or through phone. I wondered where i'm placed in her heart, or maybe not at all. When she told me about him, my heart can only aches and listen...This is love or friendship, i didn't manage to find the answer yet...
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